Beyond Repair

I'm tired of this fighting that goes on inside of me.
Every day I hope someone will be able to see
The torment that consumes me

I go on with this false hope
Fake smiles just so I can cope
I tell myself it will be all right
But that dream is so far out of sight

Gone beyond repair
I like to blame others saying it's not fair
But I know when I look in the mirror
Things seem to get a little clearer

I will never let them know
I will never let them see
It's not them I hate, it’s me.