Who I Was

I used to capture

the beauty of a bulimic

and the wisdom

from an overlooked crumb

I once reached

deep into the cosmos

and painted a glittering sky

of pure

unimaginable emotion

I remember seeing

people

for all they could be

and not

what they could do 

for me

I dreamed 

of sorrow then

and felt deeper

then the murky depths

of the ocean

most of all

I remember

so strongly

being able

to save

all those

who needed

a savior

but now

I am the one

who needs to be

saved.